Yesterday I had to go to the grocery store. Somedays I like the little pause a grocery store stop gives me. Somedays, like yesterday, I'm frustrated. I usually go after my work out so I look a hot mess. Yesterday was no exception. The drive from my gym to the store is a minute, if that. So sometimes, I get so frustrated with having to put Jackson into his carseat just to take him right back out. He hates it. I hate it. We're all crying, okay. As I was waiting for a parking spot by the produce side of the store, I almost got too impatient waiting for a truck to leave. He was very close to the door. For any mama with an antsy child, a spot close to the door that is ALSO close to a basket corral is a gift sent from God Himself. The guy was about to leave but I wanted to get my grocery trip over with. But he was taking just one minute too long. Right in that moment, I felt God nudge my heart. I had to take a look inside and realize that just as I was getting too impatient to wait for this perfect parking spot that only required a minute more of waiting, I often get tired and impatient waiting for my calling to come to pass, for my purpose to rise to the surface. I get impatient when I know that I have been working for years on something only for someone who just began the process to rise up and be blessed before I am. We've all been there. The thing is, I didn't know what that man in the truck was doing. That extra minute was probably spent making sure everyone was buckled. The extra time God spends preparing me could be because He's wanting me to bless more people than I have the heart to at this moment in my life. King Saul Pastor Mike Todd has a series right now that I'm watching called Marked. I love it. I've learned so much from it. He's discussed some great topics. One of them being the fact that Saul HIMSELF was marked by God. I often forget that. We view Saul as a thorn in David's side and nothing else but do we forget that Saul was ordained for a reason? God anointed Saul. Saul had an anointing just like David did! It was SAUL who disqualified himself. He got insecure but he was also arrogant. Here's a great article if you would like to look more into where Saul went wrong. Disqualification and Requalification Often, we are disqualifying ourselves. Our own view of ourselves often rewrites our story. Instead of listening to who God says we are, instead of humbling ourselves, we give in to this personal view of ourselves that is not always accurate. God honors obedience. I think that love and obedience are at the root of most issues. When we love, we want to be obedient. When we are obedient, we are willing to be patient as we wait. There is still hope when you have been disobedient. Have you strayed from your own calling because you were tired of waiting? There is still hope. Repentance offers re-qualification (something Pastor Mike Todd preaches). When we've stepped out of our calling, God may have called someone into your calling because the revival He wants to happen is going to take place with or without us, quite honestly. It's easy to read this and get disappointed in ourselves and to lose hope. But there is still grace. There is still a place to be re-qualified. Comparing your calling to someone else's will cause you to miss the blessing God has for you. God blesses us so we can be a blessing to others. The work that God is doing in our hearts is preparation so that He can use us to touch many hearts. Comparing yourself will get you nowhere and it is unkind. We have no idea what that person has been through, what God has brought them through, the lessons God has taught them and is continuing to teach them. It is not our place to compare when we only have a surface knowledge of their life and ministry. Who Am I Truly Living For?
At the end of the day, it causes me to ask myself if I'm truly living for God or for people? Am I living for the likes on social media? For the praise of others? If my honest answer is no then it shouldn't be an issue with how long I have to wait for my blessing. There is LIFE in the waiting. You don't have to view the waiting season as a pause in life. Your waiting season can be full of blessings too. Waiting for the truck to leave the parking spot yesterday was a blessing in disguise too. It caused me to stop and realize that life doesn't have to spent in a rush. Life is meant to be lived, not rushed. Don't rush your blessing.
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